Believing in Myself
There's a difference between feeling sad, and wallowing in it.
Part of my recovery today is remembering that I am a good person. While I might have made mistakes in the past, those actions do not dictate who I am in the present. Part of the healing work I do revolves around not worrying about what other people think or even say about me. I know I’m a good person, and in moments of insecurity, I have the support of my higher power to guide me and help me stay in right-thinking.
Some days are harder than others in my journey toward building my self-esteem on this road to self-forgiveness. On those more challenging days, I ask my higher power for help in carrying that heavy burden, and I remember to be grateful not only for the beautiful things in my life today, but for my life, itself.
I recognize that it’s okay to feel sad, and that experiencing moments of sadness does not mean that I am not doing well in my life. Today I understand these emotions to be normal, and that they don’t actually hinder my progress in recovery. This understanding helps me to simply let the emotions move through me, without feeling the need or desire to sit in it. I now have the flexibility to acknowledge hurt feelings that I might have, but to not over-indulge in self-pity.
Today I am glad for the many gifts I have in my life, and I can resist self-defeating thoughts that steal my serenity and negate my self-esteem. I honour any sadness that might come in a healthy way but today I let them pass through me in a timely and healthy way, without overpowering me.
